“Life comes at us in waves. We can’t predict or control those waves, but we can learn to surf” Dan Millman
I owe the title of this blog to someone very dear to my heart, someone I consider a daughter in this lifetime although we are not related by blood but by spirit; and someone who has traveled this journey and knows the road all too well. As I shared with Shawntay this morning in a chat that the waiting and not knowing what I am dealing with exactly is the hardest part of the journey, she sent me some soothing music to “calm the waves of the unknown.” This is what I mean when I say that those who have been through the fire know the flames well enough to share the experience and what is necessary to face it mentally. My friend Tiffany has traveled this road as well and holds my hand, checks on me every day, and finds some way to lift me up with words and hugs and lots of laughter. There are so many others who message and call and each one is so appreciated. As I go through this trial of fire, I know I am not alone. I have precious angels holding me and wiping tears, guiding me to resources which many of you have shared as well. I have no doubt that I will come through this fire with only a singe and will rise up from it like the beautiful phoenix that I am. Ah, how many times in this one lifetime have I done this dance? Staring death in the face since an early age, triumphing every time that the odds looked impossible. I once joked that I was leaving this world one body part at a time. I have to find humor in the experiences or else it is just a horrible experience instead of something I can overcome and be grateful for.
Speaking of humor – and hopefully this does not offend anyone, although it is my journey so I choose to do so anyway – I will share my most recent experience with you and trust you will laugh along with me. I underwent a biopsy of the lumps in both breasts a couple of days ago. The surgical cleanse they used was blue and turned my breasts blue. I was told not to shower for a day and when I removed the bandages to do so there were red streaks as my skin is very sensitive to adhesive and I had a reaction to the tape they used. There are Steri-Strips covering the wound sites and those are white. Therefore, I now have red white and blue boobs – very patriotic don’t you think? I feel that I should salute them!! One friend called them Star Spangled Boobs! Ah, thank you to those who know me and know my humor!
During the biopsy I became disheartened when the doctor discovered that they were not cysts, as I was holding on to the hope that this would be the case. Instead of losing it, which I came close to doing, I focused instead on my tools. I laid there doing the Heart-Brain Coherence that I learned from Gregg Braden and love to teach to others. I can say with ultimate confidence now that it is the best practical and most expedient tool any of us can have to use when facing difficult situations. I even have a support group of ladies that I meet with weekly to do the Heart-Brain breathing and lift each other up (thank you WonderWomen).
So, as I play the waiting game and deal with the world of the unknown, I will continue to hold onto each positive message. I will continue to do my affirmations that I am in perfect health and worthy of that. I will continue to do EFT tapping to calm the nerves and change the cells inside my body, and thank you John for nudging me to do so and checking on me daily. I will fight, trusting that I am supported and protected by the beautiful angels, including those on earth. I love you.