November 22, 2019 ~ Day 1
Sometimes I dive right into the pool before testing the water to see the temperature. Well, I’m in it all the way today as I begin a journey of shedding what no longer serves me and feeling a little chilled and looking around for the steps to exit; knowing, however, that if I quit now I would not get back in. I have reached a point of being discontent with how I feel physically, which tells me it is time to change something inside of me as well as look at what habits need to be brought to the light and discarded or changed.
This has been a year of growth through fire for me and that is never easy. When we grow physically it is necessary to stop using the old clothing, shoes, etc. as we outgrow those. Growing emotionally and spiritually is the same way. It is necessary now for me to throw out the old habits, the old stories, the old patterns and thought processes because they don’t fit any longer. I’m not the same person who walked out of the doctor’s office on February 12th of this year, scared and shaken, reeling from a cancer diagnosis. This new me deserves a new wardrobe so I have decided to go shopping, just not in a 3D store!
I’m giving myself the present of being very present with me, with the spirit being that I am. I’m looking at old patterns of behavior and noting the ones that I’ve outgrown and immediately discarding them. I’m no novice when it comes to stopping a habit. When I decided to quit smoking there was no wavering, no looking back. I was done. It no longer fit me! That’s the point I am at in my journey now – what no longer fits is GONE. This includes foods that do not help me nutritionally. I’m jump-starting the process with a 10-day ketone drink challenge.
I have reached out to my friends to help support me in this journey. I know I can do it alone but just knowing others are there cheering me on, praying for me, holding space for me to do my inner work, makes the process easier. I feel your energy as you encourage me. I love seeing “Yes, you can” every day on my social media! Day 1 is done. I’m deciding to stay in the pool and not abandon ship. It’s beginning to feel really good in here.