Taking a break from outside distractions and spending the day with myself showed me a few things. Yes, there was the impulse to reach for the mouse and with a few clicks be instantly connected to the hustle and bustle of social media. There was also the impulse to pick up my phone and check messages. I had huge arguments with myself that all started with but … things like “but what about the groups I administrate” and “but I always do this…” Yes, the struggle is real. We get so wrapped up in our ego monkey mind and letting it control what we do and when we do it that it gives us no time to be with ourselves. We know who is on vacation and where, what others are eating, who got a new animal or lost a beloved pet all the while neglecting to schedule our own vacation or plan our meals or pay attention to our own furbabies … or just stop to smell the roses.
So, I smelled some roses today figuratively. I took time to assess the direction I was going and how my life was progressing. Barbara Marx Hubbard states “Ask to know what you are born to do. Follow the compass of joy.” I took time to enjoy nature and became more centered through connecting with Mother Earth. I listened to some very spiritually connected people making a whole lot of sense and had my soul fed. I played with both my inner child and my two furbabies. I took time to listen to a friend who was struggling and gave her my full attention, unimpeded by the distraction of the computer. I laughed at myself. I had fun being with me! I looked in the mirror and asked “what do you want?” I am so used to asking other people that and listening to their answers and yet when I asked that person in the mirror it was like a totally unique experience. Suddenly, there was a gleam in my eyes. I found myself intrigued that I was actually standing there waiting for the answer. Wow. What do I want? It was an AHA moment.
Interestingly, after that interlude, I realized something very profound about desire. When we are in the mode of wanting something, i.e., our desire, our focus is on that. We are so intent on having to have it and then when it does materialize we relax from that intensity. We “breathe” again. There is happiness, bliss, joy. What if we took the desire out of the mix? What if our focus became that state of happiness, bliss and joy? I’m not saying don’t want anything or strive for more of whatever your dreams are. Instead, place the focus on the feeling of already having your desire. Knowing what you want is only the first step, not the entire enchilada, although for some it becomes an obsession. Once the “that” is established, then go within yourself and find the emotions connected with the fulfillment of that desire and let that be where your attention stays. Whatever your “that” is, absorb it as a part of yourself. You are the creator of your own reality; thus, you can make the statement, “I am that, I am” for whatever your “that” is. In fact, doing this exercise with everything in your world, including people, will be a mind-blowing experience!
When you take time to really know yourself and all your wants/desires, your likes and dislikes, your idiosyncrasies, then you can begin to fall in love with yourself. When you fall in love with yourself, you are going to want the best possible life for yourself. That, my friends, will be the motivation for making your world a better place to live. I am so grateful for all of you! I love you. Namaste