Know Yourself, Love Yourself and Change Your World

p02vf969Taking a break from outside distractions and spending the day with myself showed me a few things.  Yes, there was the impulse to reach for the mouse and with a few clicks be instantly connected to the hustle and bustle of social media.  There was also the impulse to pick up my phone and check messages.  I had huge arguments with myself that all started with but … things like “but what about the groups I administrate” and “but I always do this…”  Yes, the struggle is real.  We get so wrapped up in our ego monkey mind and letting it control what we do and when we do it that it gives us no time to be with ourselves.  We know who is on vacation and where, what others are eating, who got a new animal or lost a beloved pet all the while neglecting to schedule our own vacation or plan our meals or pay attention to our own furbabies … or just stop to smell the roses.

So, I smelled some roses today figuratively.  I took time to assess the direction I was going and how my life was progressing.  Barbara Marx Hubbard states “Ask to know what you are born to do. Follow the compass of joy.”  I took time to enjoy nature and became more centered through connecting with Mother Earth.  I listened to some very spiritually connected people making a whole lot of sense and had my soul fed.  I played with both my inner child and my two furbabies.  I took time to listen to a friend who was struggling and gave her my full attention, unimpeded by the distraction of the computer.  I laughed at myself.  I had fun being with me!  I looked in the mirror and asked “what do you want?”  I am so used to asking other people that and listening to their answers and yet when I asked that person in the mirror it was like a totally unique experience.  Suddenly, there was a gleam in my eyes.  I found myself intrigued that I was actually standing there waiting for the answer.  Wow.  What do I want?  It was an AHA moment.

Interestingly, after that interlude, I realized something very profound about desire.  When we are in the mode of wanting something, i.e., our desire, our focus is on that.  We are so intent on having to have it and then when it does materialize we relax from that intensity.  We “breathe” again.  There is happiness, bliss, joy.  What if we took the desire out of the mix?  What if our focus became that state of happiness, bliss and joy?  I’m not saying don’t want anything or strive for more of whatever your dreams are.  Instead, place the focus on the feeling of already having your desire.  Knowing what you want is only the first step, not the entire enchilada, although for some it becomes an obsession.  Once the “that” is established, then go within yourself and find the emotions connected with the fulfillment of that desire and let that be where your attention stays.  Whatever your “that” is, absorb it as a part of yourself.  You are the creator of your own reality; thus, you can make the statement, “I am that, I am” for whatever your “that” is.  In fact, doing this exercise with everything in your world, including people, will be a mind-blowing experience!

When you take time to really know yourself and all your wants/desires, your likes and dislikes, your idiosyncrasies, then you can begin to fall in love with yourself.  When you fall in love with yourself, you are going to want the best possible life for yourself.  That, my friends, will be the motivation for making your world a better place to live.  I am so grateful for all of you!  I love you.  Namaste

152950274I am so grateful for this day!  I feel “seen” by God.  I know the angels are surrounding me. I am loved.  I am that — I am!  I am the sound of a thousand songbirds.  I am the rush of a million waves in the ocean.  I am the quiet snow on the mountaintop.  I am the breeze brushing against my face.  I am the children’s laughter coming from the playground.  I am the words written on this page. I am peace.  I am LOVE.  I am joy.  I am that!

The Gift of Life

kidneydonationpicJuly 6, 1975 was my last dialysis treatment of what was a hellish 8 months of undergoing 5-hour per day 3 times a week treatments.  My kidneys had failed in November the prior year, landing me in the hospital for the entire month.  I remember those days like it was yesterday.  I had gone on vacation in October to visit my family in Kentucky before my baby was due as I was only 6 months along.  I didn’t get to see them very often because I was so far away, having moved to Florida 2 years earlier.  When I got back from vacation, I went from looking like I was 6 months pregnant to what appeared to be a 9-month pregnancy.  I felt okay except for what I assumed were normal pregnancy issues – swollen feet, tiredness, etc.  I say assumed because it was my first time pregnant.  I was scheduled to see my Ob/Gyn when I got back and he was alarmed at the change in size of my belly and told me he wanted to run some tests, so he sent me to the hospital to do so.  It would be 30 days before I saw the outside of that hospital due to what was diagnosed as “acute renal failure.”  There was no way to know how much time had passed since the kidneys stopped functioning as they labored to filter the blood of me and my unborn baby.  Had I not gone for that routine exam, I would not be writing this story now.

On July 7, 1975, I was taken – along with my brother Ken – to the operating room early in the morning.  It was going to be a full day of surgery and at that time kidney transplants were still pretty much in their infancy, the first in the US being 1954.  My nephrologist, Dr. Metzger, assured me I was in good hands with the surgical team he had gathered.  Ken and I were wheeled down the hallway, hand in hand, for what I consider to be the greatest sacrifice one human can make for another – the gift of life.

So today, July 7, 2017, I celebrate 42 years of a successful kidney transplant.  Dr. Metzger tells me it is the longest surviving kidney that he has transplanted.  For 36 of those years, I have taken no anti-rejection medication.  I am currently in a research project at Emory University Transplant Center with Dr. Kenneth Newell and have been for over 10 years, the purpose of which is to determine the factors present in my system and others like myself who are “tolerant” patients that are different from others who need to remain on medication.  The more information gathered by this research, the more future transplant patients will benefit from it.  It is my way of paying it forward.

For me, having been given an additional 42 years that I would not have had without this gift is a true miracle.  It is a bonus that I have not had to endure the side effects of the medication.  I honestly give all glory for this miracle to my wonderful Creator who is ever-present in my life.  Each day I wake up, I give thanks for another day alive.  I ask to be a blessing in the world and to shine my light out through loving and lifting others up.  I give gratitude for everyone and everything in my life.  I know none of us is guaranteed one more minute than this very NOW that we are living and I will continue to shine my light for as many of those moments as I have left here on earth.  If you love someone, tell them.  If you are grateful for someone, tell them.  Don’t let another minute pass by without letting others know how important they are to you.  I love you!  Namaste

A Half-Empty or Half-Full Year

halfemptyorfullAre you like a lot of people who are shaking their heads and saying “where did half a year go?  Didn’t we just have New Years??”  It is very easy to get caught up in that mentality.  We can liken it to those who look at a glass of water and see it either as half empty or half full.  We can look back and wish for days that are passed or we can march steadfastly and strong into a bright future, one day at a time, one breath at a time owning our power.  This moment, this NOW, really is all that exists at any point in time.  Therefore, mourning the passing of our linear time is really not serving our best and highest purpose, is it?  We would be better served by looking at how we can make a difference in the world today.  Each morning I awaken with gratitude for a new day, a new opportunity to experience adventure, love, happiness and joy.  I ask out loud, “Now how can this day get better?  How can I serve others today?”  When we approach life with such an attitude, we have left behind us a trail of positive energy that keeps moving forward in momentum.  What legacy do you want to leave behind you?  I love you!

Honor Mothers Every Day

mothers-day-no-mefsLet’s talk about the elephant in the room.  If you are a woman over childbearing age, more than likely you will be hit with an onslaught of “Happy Mother’s Day” if you are out and about in grocery stores, restaurants, basically anywhere in public this weekend.  On social media, you will see posts wishing you “Happy Mother’s Day” from strangers who do not know if you are indeed a mother or not.  What brought me to even write this blog post is that all week I have been getting private messages wishing me “Happy Mother’s Day” and cute pictures of flowers and hearts.  Yes, you mean well—I understand that. BUT not every woman is a mother and some who gave birth may have painful memories of loss or in many cases of estrangement.  You don’t know.  Some may have even had issues from childhood or even adulthood with their mother.  So stop making an assumptions please when you don’t know anything about the person you are addressing with these messages.

Mother’s Day was created to honor mothers, to write a letter of affection to your mother and to wear a white carnation.  What evolved was essentially the same thing as the commercialization of Christmas with Hallmark cards, chocolates and of course lunches at restaurants (second highest day next to Christmas).  The meaning behind the holiday became lost as it became all about how much the commercial world could benefit from it.  In fact, Anna Marie Jarvis, the founder, spent the rest of her life trying to “undo” the holiday once she saw what was happening with it!

Now I want to say for those of you who are mothers or in a motherhood role, I am very happy for you and I hope your day is awesome.  What you do is so amazing, such a huge responsibility.  Thank you.  I hope you are honored by your children and that they continue to do so every day, not just this one day.  I also want to ask that if you are still reading this, please take a moment out of your day to honor our Mother Earth.  Let’s all show her some love and respect today and every day and lift her up in our prayers.  I love you!  Namaste

A Little Help From Our Friends

purple-moon-730x410I received a channeled message from my guides regarding the full moon energies.  I am sharing it with you here.

It is important to note that where your thoughts go, action will follow.  We are not diminishing the fact that a physical event happens, that is the full moon, or that it has an effect on you.  We are just asking that you draw upon what you have learned and our teachings to help you through the times of this high energy.  The full moon, include the days immediately before and after, is a time of opportunity to increase your positivity and raise your vibration.  The energy can either increase your positive energy or you can be drawn into a downward spiral of emotions and unrest.  The full moon pours down a tremendous amount of energy and therefore you must be in a calm state of mind to receive a positive effect.  It is a great time to meditate and focus on what is right in your life and your path this lifetime.  Clear and align your chakra energy centers to prepare for the tide of energy coming to you.  Stay in a state of gratitude.  Remember that whatever is going on in your body, mind and spirit WILL be amplified.  For instance, if you are angry, you will feel angrier or if you are happy, you will feel happier.  During the full moon, the ocean swells and the power of the waves increase.  Since your bodies are made up of mostly water, the moon is also affecting you just as it does the ocean with more waves of energy.  This energy is very powerful so it is important to direct it with positive intention.

Many of you have learned to use the energy of the full moon for cleansing stones and energize your drinking water.  The powerful lunar energy helps to remove all dense, stored up energies, washing the crystal and water cleaning and re-energizing it.  It is a time of enhancing energies.  Envision that the moon energy is doing the same for your body and your emotions.  Release the old, let go of whatever is holding you back and not serving your highest purpose, then really trust that it is gone.  Call on us to help in this regard.  Archangel Michael is always willing to cut any ties to whatever may be holding you bound to past emotions and events and set you free from them.

So the choice is yours, dear ones.  You can either be pulled into the ocean of energy and caught up in the riptide or you can draw on your strength, which is your inner fortitude bathed in positive love and light, and swim through the waves.  You and only you can make the decision.  Will you be a wayshower and shine your light out in a positive way or be drawn into the rumbling and grumbling of the current?  Namaste

Go With the Flow

chaos 1Where are you standing in the midst of the chaos?  We do have choices, you know.  We do not have a choice or control over external things such as those things called natural disasters, acts of God, meteorites, sun flares and Mercury retrogrades or even over other people’s actions or words.  The choice we do have is how we are standing firm against all of this.  The full moon is happening this week and the energy may seem a little wonky to you or maybe you are at a point where you welcome in the energy and see it as only energy, neither good or bad.  It does have a healing property to it as it recharges our chakras.  Some put out crystals and gemstones to be charged in its powerful glow.  The earth is naturally full of these crystals and stones and therefore is receiving a charge from the moon as well, so even standing barefoot on earth during this time will help recharge your own energy fields.

My shaman last night spoke of energy.  He said to look at it as neither positive nor negative, but just accept it as is.  It’s the same as looking at another person and not judging whether they are good or bad, ugly or beautiful, rich or poor – just looking at them and seeing the inside spirit.  When we see things without judgment, including ourselves, we have begun our own ascension process.  It is neither easy or hard to do this.  It does, however, take a commitment to stand firm in the chaos and go with the flow.  Namaste