My 10-day challenge – Glowing

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November 27, 2019 ~ Day 6

It’s a great day to have a great day! My waking thoughts are not about my to-do list which was a habit I had fallen into of checking my schedule as soon as I woke up.  Instead this morning it is about what Can I do today! Yes I can is so very powerful! It opens the door to all possibilities.  Indeed, there are still responsibilities and things that have already been planned out but approaching it with a different perspective is quite freeing.  I can look at things with new eyes.  I can see that client who is on my schedule in a different light.  Whatever is needed in their life such as hand-holding, a shoulder to cry on, a compassionate ear, some healing energy, is given with a heart full of love and focused mind.

This new mindset is so uplifting. My energy soars daily which keeps me motivated in all areas of my life. The physical changes that are occurring are wonderful but not my entire focus. It really is true that what is inside is reflected on the outside. I am hearing things such as “you are glowing” when I see friends. It is my intention to let that outward glow shine forth and touch everyone with love, with a spark of the Divine. May you be blessed this day!

 

Day 5 of My 10-day challenge

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November 26, 2019 ~ Day 5

Life is about contrasts, ups and downs, laughter and sadness, dark and light. To say that today was a different experience than day 4 is an understatement.  Today, it seemed the universe was conspiring to hand me gifts on a silver platter.  I have been trying to change my parking space where I live for years and was told a couple of months ago that it would happen.  Today it finally did. The blessings kept adding up through the day. Our beautiful anthology that we launched last week is in print and I received my printed copy today. I got my laundry done in record time and met an awesome couple whose conversation helped me not be bored while I waited. I booked a new client and did a couple of distance Angelic Reiki healings. I am truly blessed as I reflect on this day.  I know every day comes with its own unique twists and turns. I know that if I start out with a positive mindset then I am more likely to see the good in each moment or at least look at it as either a lesson or a blessing.

As I meditated this morning I heard to change my words that I have been using from “Yes I can and yes I will” to “Yes I can and Yes I am.”  It’s a little shift – just one word – but it makes it so much more powerful! It’s no longer projecting into the future. I was told that this experience of the 10-day challenge was all about learning to navigate the Now. I am seeing how important it is to shift in all ways and to be more aware of the story I am telling. “I will” is a story about not having achieved it yet, whatever ‘it’ may be. It’s a story of lack. “I am” is a statement that shows confidence and power and is enough all by itself. So yes I can (meaning I choose to do whatever I am guided toward) and yes I am.

Day 4 Of My 10-day Challenge

November 25, 2019 ~ Day 4

You would think that with time change becomes easier.  You would think, right? Day 4 is behind me finally and boy was it a challenge. I’m not sure how I did it but I set the alarm for the time of my first appointment of the day! Thank goodness I woke up prior to that (thank you angels) but it didn’t leave me with much time to prepare for the meeting I was going into.  At my doctor’s appointment there was disappointment because I was told that the sutures have to stay in a little longer.  I was hoping to celebrate not having to see doctors for the rest of this year! I contacted a friend in the area and met her for lunch at a new-to-me restaurant. I have to say it was really tempting at this point to have the more tasty fruity bowl on the menu but instead I drew strength from all the people who have been encouraging me this week. I made a healthy choice that was in line with my goal of low carbs and ordered that. It did not come out as the salad I ordered but a wrap instead. Now I had another choice. Eat the wrap (more carbs) or send it back and get what I ordered.  There was a moment of hesitancy but I did it.  The words “you can do it” kept ringing in my ear. Yes, I can do it and I keep proving it to myself in these small ways that are really big for me. 

The day went on with a few more roadblocks and detours, schedule changes, etc. Electronics didn’t work correctly, posting some PR on social media hit a snag. All these things were annoying, frustrating and I found myself finally at the end of the day sitting with a notebook and staring at a blank piece of paper. I didn’t ask why. I asked what I was supposed to do with this. I knew I was not going to give up as that is not in my nature. My motto has always been “where there’s a will, there’s a way.” This was different though. This seemed more like dominoes falling and me wanting to run ahead and stop the crashing process.

I read something that Jim Carey said and it helped me in a crazy way – imagine that! He was sharing that he read a book memorializing his friend but he read it backwards and his friend was alive at the end of the story. Hmmm, my brain says it will cooperate and we can do that with this day. So going backward from all the haywire things that took place, I digressed all the way back to where my head was still on the pillow sound asleep and peaceful. It didn’t change any of the events that happened nor make me wish they had been better than what they were; it simply allowed me to go to that moment where all was well in my world. One of my mentors says we can begin again at any given moment and create our reality going forward. I did a reset in my mind and it worked. I focused on what was calm and peaceful. The other things of the day were then minute. The only important one was the one I was left thinking about. In that present moment, I felt no stress. It was just a day and now it is part of the past. I made a mental note to pay closer attention while setting my alarm!

DAY 2 My 10-day challenge

“We don’t grow when things are easy; we grow when we face challenges” Anonymous

November 23, 2019 ~ Day 2

Today I feel much clearer, like a fog has been lifted. One good habit I have been able to maintain through the last several years is gratitude.  Each morning as I open my eyes I stop and give gratitude for another day alive, for the ability to breathe, hear, see, talk, smell and move. I love this habit. I love the feel of the positive light energy as it washes over me.  It’s like a shower before the physical shower.

Today I have decided that slower is better. I look at my calendar and the appointments I have for this day and realize that I have been overloading myself and not allowing a replenishing space in between times of giving out my energy. I have been booking back-to-back sessions and that is my task today – to correct my appointment calendar and pencil in breathing time as well as “me” time.

The ketone drink is keeping me energized and I literally have no hunger pains. I am making better food choices and drinking loads of water as well. My body is saying thank you to me and feeling much better in with this new routine. Interestingly, a friend called and asked me to dinner last night. I was able to enjoy a delicious meal and stick to my boundaries regarding how late to eat; and enjoyed a 3-hour discussion with her!

I have a huge smile as I read through all the encouragement from my friends on social media! The words shared by you all have really touched me and shows me that I made the right choice in asking for your support. It helped keep me strong and unwavering. Thank you for being there for me!

MY TEN DAY CHALLENGE DAY 1

November 22, 2019 ~ Day 1

“The key to life is accepting challenges. Once someone stops doing this, he’s dead.” – Bette Davis

Sometimes I dive right into the pool before testing the water to see the temperature. Well, I’m in it all the way today as I begin a journey of shedding what no longer serves me and feeling a little chilled and looking around for the steps to exit; knowing, however, that if I quit now I would not get back in.  I have reached a point of being discontent with how I feel physically, which tells me it is time to change something inside of me as well as look at what habits need to be brought to the light and discarded or changed.

This has been a year of growth through fire for me and that is never easy. When we grow physically it is necessary to stop using the old clothing, shoes, etc. as we outgrow those. Growing emotionally and spiritually is the same way. It is necessary now for me to throw out the old habits, the old stories, the old patterns and thought processes because they don’t fit any longer. I’m not the same person who walked out of the doctor’s office on February 12th of this year, scared and shaken, reeling from a cancer diagnosis. This new me deserves a new wardrobe so I have decided to go shopping, just not in a 3D store!

I’m giving myself the present of being very present with me, with the spirit being that I am. I’m looking at old patterns of behavior and noting the ones that I’ve outgrown and immediately discarding them.  I’m no novice when it comes to stopping a habit. When I decided to quit smoking there was no wavering, no looking back.  I was done.  It no longer fit me! That’s the point I am at in my journey now – what no longer fits is GONE.  This includes foods that do not help me nutritionally. I’m jump-starting the process with a 10-day ketone drink challenge.

I have reached out to my friends to help support me in this journey. I know I can do it alone but just knowing others are there cheering me on, praying for me, holding space for me to do my inner work, makes the process easier. I feel your energy as you encourage me. I love seeing “Yes, you can” every day on my social media!  Day 1 is done. I’m deciding to stay in the pool and not abandon ship. It’s beginning to feel really good in here.

Shadow Work

Dark moments happen to all of us. It is the contrast of living in a human body. If we didn’t have the dark, we wouldn’t recognize the light and vice versa. It is what we do with those dark moments that is important. This year has been full of such moments for me. The first instinct is to hide, crawl into a corner and make myself invisible to not have to deal with it. I have found, however, that by opening up in those dark times a spark of light comes in. Sometimes it is just a flicker and if I treat it gently it gets brighter.

Today, as I sit in my cave of darkness, curtains drawn, lights off and in complete silence I give in to a moment of emptiness and sadness. I don’t wish for outside intervention, for caring concerned loved ones, for smiles and laughter. I only want to experience the hurt and anguish. I want to get in touch with that place inside where I filed away the fear, the worry, the anger, the nightmares of the past year. I call them all out, asking them to show me their strongest and worst presence. I speak to them gently, not with the rage I expected to feel. I say “I love you.” I embrace them all as a mother would a baby. My heart is pounding as one by one I release each emotion. I honor this part of me – the dark side because it is real and raw. It doesn’t try to be anything other than what it is. I say “thank you.” The experiences of life have no meaning unless we use them to get real with ourselves. I feel gratitude for the journey. I say “please forgive me.” I dishonored myself and my emotions by not letting them be expressed fully. Forgiveness is the secret weapon that frees us from ourselves. I say “I’m sorry.” Sometimes being human is hard. I make mistakes. I own it.

I know there will be more dark times, more moments of confronting that part of me that is needed for balance. If I leave it unchecked, it will continue to grow in strength because that is how the process works; just like cancer when it is left unchecked and untreated.

It is time for some real awakening. It has to begin with the darkest side of us. Love it, honor it, release it to the light. There really is nothing to fear but fear itself. I love you.

Miracles Happen When You Trust

As my recovery from breast cancer surgery is in full swing, it amazes me to look back on the journey and all the synchronicities that happened to get me through such a challenging time.  I’m now at the point of preparing for the final surgery – breast reconstruction.  I know this surgery is not as intense or life-preserving as what I have already endured and some may even judge my decision; however, it is my body and mine alone to make the judgement call.  I want to share with you something that happened yesterday that was confirmation to me that I am supported by the angels in this journey all along the way.

One requirement for surgery is having pre-op clearance from my primary care doctor.  I went for a lab workup this week and was told my doctor was unavailable to do the pre-op visit in the timeframe needed as my surgery is scheduled in a couple of weeks.  Yes, he is that busy!  They said they would see what they could do to get me in, so I left the office with no definite appointment scheduled and looking at a one-week window to get it completed.  I didn’t get upset, or scared that it may not happen, I just had a little talk with the angels and left it at that.

Yesterday, a client wanted me to help with clearing the energy in a house, so we set an appointment for that afternoon.  As the time got closer, I texted her that a storm was coming through the area we were going to and asked about rescheduling.  She was delayed at her appointment and said she was running behind but had checked with someone in the area and the storm had already passed through (divine timing) so we kept our plans although a bit later than originally scheduled.  She picked me up to drive the half-hour or so to the house.  We had been on the road less than 10 minutes when my phone rang.  It was the doctor’s office.  They had a cancellation and wanted to know if I could come in.  The amazing part – we were on the same road as the doctor’s office and less than 10 minutes away!   Again, divine timing because if we had kept our original appointment without the delay, we would have been too far away for me to get to the doctor’s office in time to be seen!

At the visit, I was told that my labwork was perfect, my chest x-ray was perfect, and the doctor signed off for my surgery.  Now, I get to go on my trip next week to participate in a research study and visit family afterwards with a sigh of relief that everything is being handled in perfect divine timing!

More synchronicities surrounding this – a friend from California will be in my state during this time and I will be able to meet up with her along with several other friends in the area the day before surgery.  Also, one of my Facebook friends who I have not met yet is speaking at an event in my city that will take place 2 days after my surgery and he invited me to be there – yes, I plan on attending.  He is even making a video where he will talk about my journey!  This is part of the message the angels gave me as I was walking through the intense part of the journey. I heard very clearly that this is not about me, but about all the people who can be assisted in facing their challenges and being there with outstretched arms to support and encourage.  That’s my life path and I welcome it in every way.  If you want to reach out to me, I am here for you.  If you just need to hear “It will be okay” or “you are not alone” or just have someone on the other end of the phone who will let you cry and vent, I’m here and I will stand right beside you through your journey.  I love you!

SOMETIMES ALL YOU NEED IS TIME

tree at qwp“What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

As we get caught up in dwelling on our past and/or our future, we forget that we are in constant growth inside.  We look at our physical bodies and the way they used to look compared to now and this lets us know that we are progressing in one of the many laws of the universe.  However, there are so many laws at play and many times we only focus on one or two of them.  I offer you this well-known fable today in the hopes that you will understand more about expectations, balance and hopefully realize that you matter.  We all matter in this world whether we are a fast-growing fern or a seed that is just waiting for its time to show itself to the world.

 The Fable of the Fern and the Bamboo

One day I decided to give up: I quit my job, my relationship and my life. I went into the woods to talk with an elder who was said to be very wise.

“Can you give me one good reason not to quit?” I asked him. “Look around” he replied. “Do you see the fern and the bamboo?” “Yes”, I replied. “When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. The fern quickly grew. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not give up on the bamboo. In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful, and again, nothing grew from the bamboo seed. But I did not give up on the bamboo.

In the third year still nothing sprouted from the bamboo seed. But I didn’t give up on the bamboo. In the fourth year again nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I didn’t give up on the bamboo. Then in the fifth year, a tiny shoot emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant.

But then in the sixth year, the bamboo grew to 60 feet tall. It had spent five years growing the roots to sustain it. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

Did you know that all this time that you have been struggling, you have really been growing roots? The bamboo has a different purpose from the fern, but both are necessary and make the forest beautiful.”

 

May you see yourself as you are today without comparison to others.  May there be peace in your world. Please, can’t we all just get along and find our place in the sun without judgment?  I love you!

 

Teri is the founder of TIME Heals energy healing modality, a Certified Happiness Coach and spiritual mentor, an Add-Heart Facilitator with the HeartMath Institute, a psychic/medium and an author.  More information about her work or to book a session, please visit www.Angelspeakers.com

Teri is the author of The Doctor Said What?, TIME Heals, Hugz~Love: My Five-Month Journey From Cocoon to Butterfly, Changes: Life Changes When You Do and Gratitude Vase.  She is currently working on her 6th book, A TIME For Animals Love Revolution.  All books can be found at https://www.amazon.com/Teri-Miller/e/B016TPZIDI

 

 

 

Calm Down ~ There’s A Plan

photo_2019-02-18_20-27-46I am so grateful for friends, especially for friends who are not letting me go through this journey alone!  One such friend accompanied me today to see the doctor for MRI results and to discuss treatment options.  She has been there, this journey that many are finding themselves on these days.  The stench along the path is horrid; it reeks of anger, fear, sadness, guilt, loneliness.  Indeed, cancer can be a lonely road. Friends and loved ones can be supportive but they often do not fully understand how devastating it is to go through. It makes me very sad that some cannot cope emotionally and have distanced themselves altogether. The emotional support is the most crucial to a complete recovery.

For those of you following my journey, the doctor visit today confirmed what the other tests have shown – invasive lobular carcinoma. Being that this was a more in-depth test, it did show that there were more areas than just the one suspicious mass that had been identified.  I went in to the meeting with my friend in tow, expecting to have to defend the method of treatment I chose.  The angels, however, had already paved the way for a smooth discussion with the doctor and with the additional information from the testing, we were in accord as to the treatment plan.  Thank you angels and thank you Tiffany – my rock, my beautiful soul sister!

I have had many miracles show up in my life and there have been several recent ones that are making this journey a little easier.  I am learning to accept help when it is offered.  I was recently led by a friend to a wonderful resource that will help take the burden off financially going forward.  My stress level dropped tremendously with that!  I have another friend who started a crowdfunding campaign to help cover the expenses already incurred and to help meet expenses while I recuperate from the upcoming surgery (thank you Audi)!  Many have offered to be with me at the hospital when the time comes.  Maybe I should prepare the nurses ahead of time?

As I look at my support system, I am humbled and grateful for such beautiful people in my life.  I know how fortunate I am to have you all.  I know there are many going through this same journey who are alone.  Wouldn’t it be wonderful if there was a way to spread support so that no cancer patient had to walk this road alone?  Maybe that is where this journey is headed for me.  I will definitely be talking to the angels about it!

 

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Entering the Fire

photo_2019-02-13_21-51-37“Scars are like tattoos but with better stories.”  Unknown

Many of you have been holding my hand over the last couple of weeks, asking how you can help and keeping me in your prayers.  Some are not aware of what is going on with my health and until this week I did not have the answers to give a definitive answer, but now I do.  I have told you that this journey is one that I want to be very open about and I will continue to do so.

If you are human and went through the birth process, chances are you have a belly button.  This is your first scar on your human body.  As we live out our lives, we usually collect many more, some small and some not so small.  Most of mine are in the second category.  I recently went to a new doctor – new for me, that is.  I am familiar with the routine of giving medical history, etc. and in the past have even gone prepared when I know I have to give a history.  We get to the part where I am asked “have you ever had surgery?” and I realized I should have brought my list but I didn’t so I just laughed which always perplexes medical personnel (little do they know I am the bionic woman, LOL).   I could tell you about all the scars and the stories behind them but that might take a book instead of a blog.  Let’s just say I have had more than my fair share for one lifetime.

One day close to a month ago I felt some tenderness in my left breast. I have scars there from a biopsy and also a lumpectomy from approximately six years ago.  However, that was not the area of tenderness.  As I palpated the area to see why it hurt, I discovered a lump.  As I am not a novice at this, I knew it had to be checked out.  I kept telling myself that it was nothing, probably a cyst or fibroid, and that I would have a mammogram and everything would be okay.  In the back of my mind there was a thought that kept popping up that it was more than that.  I shushed the thought and went on to find a doctor to go to.  In the office, the doctor confirmed that it did feel abnormal, thus tests were ordered, blood taken, and a referral to a breast surgeon was made.  Again, the thought kept creeping in telling me this was not going to be a pleasant journey and with each mammogram, ultrasound, and eventually biopsies, I started listening to the voice yet still held out hope.  Friends were amazingly supportive, holding my hand through the waiting process.  The waiting and not knowing is without a doubt the most agonizing of the whole experience.  A friend told me today “knowledge is power” because now I know what I’m dealing with, so to be without that knowledge is to feel powerless, out of control, and that is exactly what it felt like.

As I sat in the exam room, I envisioned the doctor coming in and saying that everything was okay, no cause for alarm and to get on with my life; so when the words came out of his mouth that it was indeed cancer, you could have knocked me over with a feather.  I was already an emotional wreck having lost my little Tazzie just the day prior.  This could not be happening! I had to really focus to hear the rest of what he was saying.  He gave me the good news that it is early stage and it is slow growing.  As far as we know at this point, it is all contained in the mass and has not spread anywhere else.  I do have to go through one more test just to be sure that nothing was missed with all the other tests and I will do that tomorrow. After that, I have some tough decisions to make about how to proceed from here.  Will it be another lumpectomy followed by radiation treatment or a mastectomy? I’ll be discussing my choices with him next week and surgery will happen in the near future.  I ask that you continue to lift me up, especially now.  I know I will be okay.  I know I am supported and loved by the angelic realm as well as all you earth angels. That helps make this trial by fire a little easier to tolerate. I know without a doubt that there is something wonderful waiting for me at the end of this experience.  I know I will not come out the same as I am going in and when it is done, I will have yet another tattoo story to tell.  Thank you for being in my life.  I love you.