“If you quit once it becomes a habit. Never quit!” Michael Jordan
One of the most successful sports figures of all time gives this sage advice that we can all use. I have quit many times in many different areas of my life. Every time I gave up on a dream or goal, there was a sense of something dissipating from my spirit. I choose not to call those failures but rather redirections. I have learned many lessons in this lifetime through these changes in direction. I ran from some problems, trying to erase them from memory thinking that would erase them fully; but it just does not work that way. Whether we acknowledge our experiences or not, they are part of who we are. The only way to learn from our lessons is to embrace them, whether pleasant or unpleasant. Many times there is so much more to learn from the valleys than from the hilltop.
I have refrained from asking why these current health problems are happening. I did that in the past – dwelled on playing the victim only to go into rage and eventually depression which only added to the problem. As much as I dislike when I hear someone say “it is what it is” that is the only way I can look at this now. It is here and I have to make a choice of how I respond to it. Yes, there is anger but not rage. I am letting the anger motivate me, to propel me forward to a solution instead of dwelling on what is happening. I do not choose to see myself as a victim but rather a student of life. I am learning strength and resiliency and to never quit. Whatever comes my way, I will not give up. I will not go gently into that good night as one poet so eloquently shared. I choose health, love, peace, joy, happiness for myself. I know many people are sending healing energy my way. Quan Yin teaches that love is what heals. I accept and receive with gratitude all the love sent my way and fully believe I am healed. For the last year I have been learning the best way to take care of my physical body with nutrition and I know this is helping me to heal even faster. Today I received word from my doctor that my lab work was amazing and I only need to take one supplement for a vitamin D deficiency (and I live in the Sunshine state, LOL).
The journey this lifetime is strange in so many ways. I have come to accept the uniqueness of it and embrace the wonder of me that fits into the big puzzle that is all of us. We are all in this together. We are all one. I have learned that when one hurts, we all hurt. The level of compassion shown during this time is overwhelming. Some ask what they can do, others just do and then tell me about it (thanks Audi). I have people at my side for doctor appointments and plans to be with me for upcoming surgeries, even taking time off work to do so! My hand is being held all along this journey and I am so very grateful to not be facing it alone. Many have contributed to help ease the financial burden as well and this is so greatly appreciated. When I express gratitude, the response is “of course, you are family!” So to those who are there holding me up through this, I love you and there are no words to express my deep gratitude – I offer only these four words “I will never quit.”
If you would like to donate to help with medical expenses, you can give through PayPal at paypal.me/angelspeakers or Go Fund Me here