My 10-day challenge – Glowing

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November 27, 2019 ~ Day 6

It’s a great day to have a great day! My waking thoughts are not about my to-do list which was a habit I had fallen into of checking my schedule as soon as I woke up.  Instead this morning it is about what Can I do today! Yes I can is so very powerful! It opens the door to all possibilities.  Indeed, there are still responsibilities and things that have already been planned out but approaching it with a different perspective is quite freeing.  I can look at things with new eyes.  I can see that client who is on my schedule in a different light.  Whatever is needed in their life such as hand-holding, a shoulder to cry on, a compassionate ear, some healing energy, is given with a heart full of love and focused mind.

This new mindset is so uplifting. My energy soars daily which keeps me motivated in all areas of my life. The physical changes that are occurring are wonderful but not my entire focus. It really is true that what is inside is reflected on the outside. I am hearing things such as “you are glowing” when I see friends. It is my intention to let that outward glow shine forth and touch everyone with love, with a spark of the Divine. May you be blessed this day!

 

Day 5 of My 10-day challenge

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November 26, 2019 ~ Day 5

Life is about contrasts, ups and downs, laughter and sadness, dark and light. To say that today was a different experience than day 4 is an understatement.  Today, it seemed the universe was conspiring to hand me gifts on a silver platter.  I have been trying to change my parking space where I live for years and was told a couple of months ago that it would happen.  Today it finally did. The blessings kept adding up through the day. Our beautiful anthology that we launched last week is in print and I received my printed copy today. I got my laundry done in record time and met an awesome couple whose conversation helped me not be bored while I waited. I booked a new client and did a couple of distance Angelic Reiki healings. I am truly blessed as I reflect on this day.  I know every day comes with its own unique twists and turns. I know that if I start out with a positive mindset then I am more likely to see the good in each moment or at least look at it as either a lesson or a blessing.

As I meditated this morning I heard to change my words that I have been using from “Yes I can and yes I will” to “Yes I can and Yes I am.”  It’s a little shift – just one word – but it makes it so much more powerful! It’s no longer projecting into the future. I was told that this experience of the 10-day challenge was all about learning to navigate the Now. I am seeing how important it is to shift in all ways and to be more aware of the story I am telling. “I will” is a story about not having achieved it yet, whatever ‘it’ may be. It’s a story of lack. “I am” is a statement that shows confidence and power and is enough all by itself. So yes I can (meaning I choose to do whatever I am guided toward) and yes I am.

Day 4 Of My 10-day Challenge

November 25, 2019 ~ Day 4

You would think that with time change becomes easier.  You would think, right? Day 4 is behind me finally and boy was it a challenge. I’m not sure how I did it but I set the alarm for the time of my first appointment of the day! Thank goodness I woke up prior to that (thank you angels) but it didn’t leave me with much time to prepare for the meeting I was going into.  At my doctor’s appointment there was disappointment because I was told that the sutures have to stay in a little longer.  I was hoping to celebrate not having to see doctors for the rest of this year! I contacted a friend in the area and met her for lunch at a new-to-me restaurant. I have to say it was really tempting at this point to have the more tasty fruity bowl on the menu but instead I drew strength from all the people who have been encouraging me this week. I made a healthy choice that was in line with my goal of low carbs and ordered that. It did not come out as the salad I ordered but a wrap instead. Now I had another choice. Eat the wrap (more carbs) or send it back and get what I ordered.  There was a moment of hesitancy but I did it.  The words “you can do it” kept ringing in my ear. Yes, I can do it and I keep proving it to myself in these small ways that are really big for me. 

The day went on with a few more roadblocks and detours, schedule changes, etc. Electronics didn’t work correctly, posting some PR on social media hit a snag. All these things were annoying, frustrating and I found myself finally at the end of the day sitting with a notebook and staring at a blank piece of paper. I didn’t ask why. I asked what I was supposed to do with this. I knew I was not going to give up as that is not in my nature. My motto has always been “where there’s a will, there’s a way.” This was different though. This seemed more like dominoes falling and me wanting to run ahead and stop the crashing process.

I read something that Jim Carey said and it helped me in a crazy way – imagine that! He was sharing that he read a book memorializing his friend but he read it backwards and his friend was alive at the end of the story. Hmmm, my brain says it will cooperate and we can do that with this day. So going backward from all the haywire things that took place, I digressed all the way back to where my head was still on the pillow sound asleep and peaceful. It didn’t change any of the events that happened nor make me wish they had been better than what they were; it simply allowed me to go to that moment where all was well in my world. One of my mentors says we can begin again at any given moment and create our reality going forward. I did a reset in my mind and it worked. I focused on what was calm and peaceful. The other things of the day were then minute. The only important one was the one I was left thinking about. In that present moment, I felt no stress. It was just a day and now it is part of the past. I made a mental note to pay closer attention while setting my alarm!

MY TEN DAY CHALLENGE DAY 1

November 22, 2019 ~ Day 1

“The key to life is accepting challenges. Once someone stops doing this, he’s dead.” – Bette Davis

Sometimes I dive right into the pool before testing the water to see the temperature. Well, I’m in it all the way today as I begin a journey of shedding what no longer serves me and feeling a little chilled and looking around for the steps to exit; knowing, however, that if I quit now I would not get back in.  I have reached a point of being discontent with how I feel physically, which tells me it is time to change something inside of me as well as look at what habits need to be brought to the light and discarded or changed.

This has been a year of growth through fire for me and that is never easy. When we grow physically it is necessary to stop using the old clothing, shoes, etc. as we outgrow those. Growing emotionally and spiritually is the same way. It is necessary now for me to throw out the old habits, the old stories, the old patterns and thought processes because they don’t fit any longer. I’m not the same person who walked out of the doctor’s office on February 12th of this year, scared and shaken, reeling from a cancer diagnosis. This new me deserves a new wardrobe so I have decided to go shopping, just not in a 3D store!

I’m giving myself the present of being very present with me, with the spirit being that I am. I’m looking at old patterns of behavior and noting the ones that I’ve outgrown and immediately discarding them.  I’m no novice when it comes to stopping a habit. When I decided to quit smoking there was no wavering, no looking back.  I was done.  It no longer fit me! That’s the point I am at in my journey now – what no longer fits is GONE.  This includes foods that do not help me nutritionally. I’m jump-starting the process with a 10-day ketone drink challenge.

I have reached out to my friends to help support me in this journey. I know I can do it alone but just knowing others are there cheering me on, praying for me, holding space for me to do my inner work, makes the process easier. I feel your energy as you encourage me. I love seeing “Yes, you can” every day on my social media!  Day 1 is done. I’m deciding to stay in the pool and not abandon ship. It’s beginning to feel really good in here.

Shadow Work

Dark moments happen to all of us. It is the contrast of living in a human body. If we didn’t have the dark, we wouldn’t recognize the light and vice versa. It is what we do with those dark moments that is important. This year has been full of such moments for me. The first instinct is to hide, crawl into a corner and make myself invisible to not have to deal with it. I have found, however, that by opening up in those dark times a spark of light comes in. Sometimes it is just a flicker and if I treat it gently it gets brighter.

Today, as I sit in my cave of darkness, curtains drawn, lights off and in complete silence I give in to a moment of emptiness and sadness. I don’t wish for outside intervention, for caring concerned loved ones, for smiles and laughter. I only want to experience the hurt and anguish. I want to get in touch with that place inside where I filed away the fear, the worry, the anger, the nightmares of the past year. I call them all out, asking them to show me their strongest and worst presence. I speak to them gently, not with the rage I expected to feel. I say “I love you.” I embrace them all as a mother would a baby. My heart is pounding as one by one I release each emotion. I honor this part of me – the dark side because it is real and raw. It doesn’t try to be anything other than what it is. I say “thank you.” The experiences of life have no meaning unless we use them to get real with ourselves. I feel gratitude for the journey. I say “please forgive me.” I dishonored myself and my emotions by not letting them be expressed fully. Forgiveness is the secret weapon that frees us from ourselves. I say “I’m sorry.” Sometimes being human is hard. I make mistakes. I own it.

I know there will be more dark times, more moments of confronting that part of me that is needed for balance. If I leave it unchecked, it will continue to grow in strength because that is how the process works; just like cancer when it is left unchecked and untreated.

It is time for some real awakening. It has to begin with the darkest side of us. Love it, honor it, release it to the light. There really is nothing to fear but fear itself. I love you.

SOMETIMES ALL YOU NEED IS TIME

tree at qwp“What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

As we get caught up in dwelling on our past and/or our future, we forget that we are in constant growth inside.  We look at our physical bodies and the way they used to look compared to now and this lets us know that we are progressing in one of the many laws of the universe.  However, there are so many laws at play and many times we only focus on one or two of them.  I offer you this well-known fable today in the hopes that you will understand more about expectations, balance and hopefully realize that you matter.  We all matter in this world whether we are a fast-growing fern or a seed that is just waiting for its time to show itself to the world.

 The Fable of the Fern and the Bamboo

One day I decided to give up: I quit my job, my relationship and my life. I went into the woods to talk with an elder who was said to be very wise.

“Can you give me one good reason not to quit?” I asked him. “Look around” he replied. “Do you see the fern and the bamboo?” “Yes”, I replied. “When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. The fern quickly grew. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not give up on the bamboo. In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful, and again, nothing grew from the bamboo seed. But I did not give up on the bamboo.

In the third year still nothing sprouted from the bamboo seed. But I didn’t give up on the bamboo. In the fourth year again nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I didn’t give up on the bamboo. Then in the fifth year, a tiny shoot emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant.

But then in the sixth year, the bamboo grew to 60 feet tall. It had spent five years growing the roots to sustain it. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

Did you know that all this time that you have been struggling, you have really been growing roots? The bamboo has a different purpose from the fern, but both are necessary and make the forest beautiful.”

 

May you see yourself as you are today without comparison to others.  May there be peace in your world. Please, can’t we all just get along and find our place in the sun without judgment?  I love you!

 

Teri is the founder of TIME Heals energy healing modality, a Certified Happiness Coach and spiritual mentor, an Add-Heart Facilitator with the HeartMath Institute, a psychic/medium and an author.  More information about her work or to book a session, please visit www.Angelspeakers.com

Teri is the author of The Doctor Said What?, TIME Heals, Hugz~Love: My Five-Month Journey From Cocoon to Butterfly, Changes: Life Changes When You Do and Gratitude Vase.  She is currently working on her 6th book, A TIME For Animals Love Revolution.  All books can be found at https://www.amazon.com/Teri-Miller/e/B016TPZIDI

 

 

 

Calm Down ~ There’s A Plan

photo_2019-02-18_20-27-46I am so grateful for friends, especially for friends who are not letting me go through this journey alone!  One such friend accompanied me today to see the doctor for MRI results and to discuss treatment options.  She has been there, this journey that many are finding themselves on these days.  The stench along the path is horrid; it reeks of anger, fear, sadness, guilt, loneliness.  Indeed, cancer can be a lonely road. Friends and loved ones can be supportive but they often do not fully understand how devastating it is to go through. It makes me very sad that some cannot cope emotionally and have distanced themselves altogether. The emotional support is the most crucial to a complete recovery.

For those of you following my journey, the doctor visit today confirmed what the other tests have shown – invasive lobular carcinoma. Being that this was a more in-depth test, it did show that there were more areas than just the one suspicious mass that had been identified.  I went in to the meeting with my friend in tow, expecting to have to defend the method of treatment I chose.  The angels, however, had already paved the way for a smooth discussion with the doctor and with the additional information from the testing, we were in accord as to the treatment plan.  Thank you angels and thank you Tiffany – my rock, my beautiful soul sister!

I have had many miracles show up in my life and there have been several recent ones that are making this journey a little easier.  I am learning to accept help when it is offered.  I was recently led by a friend to a wonderful resource that will help take the burden off financially going forward.  My stress level dropped tremendously with that!  I have another friend who started a crowdfunding campaign to help cover the expenses already incurred and to help meet expenses while I recuperate from the upcoming surgery (thank you Audi)!  Many have offered to be with me at the hospital when the time comes.  Maybe I should prepare the nurses ahead of time?

As I look at my support system, I am humbled and grateful for such beautiful people in my life.  I know how fortunate I am to have you all.  I know there are many going through this same journey who are alone.  Wouldn’t it be wonderful if there was a way to spread support so that no cancer patient had to walk this road alone?  Maybe that is where this journey is headed for me.  I will definitely be talking to the angels about it!

 

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