152950274I am so grateful for this day!  I feel “seen” by God.  I know the angels are surrounding me. I am loved.  I am that — I am!  I am the sound of a thousand songbirds.  I am the rush of a million waves in the ocean.  I am the quiet snow on the mountaintop.  I am the breeze brushing against my face.  I am the children’s laughter coming from the playground.  I am the words written on this page. I am peace.  I am LOVE.  I am joy.  I am that!

The Gift of Life

kidneydonationpicJuly 6, 1975 was my last dialysis treatment of what was a hellish 8 months of undergoing 5-hour per day 3 times a week treatments.  My kidneys had failed in November the prior year, landing me in the hospital for the entire month.  I remember those days like it was yesterday.  I had gone on vacation in October to visit my family in Kentucky before my baby was due as I was only 6 months along.  I didn’t get to see them very often because I was so far away, having moved to Florida 2 years earlier.  When I got back from vacation, I went from looking like I was 6 months pregnant to what appeared to be a 9-month pregnancy.  I felt okay except for what I assumed were normal pregnancy issues – swollen feet, tiredness, etc.  I say assumed because it was my first time pregnant.  I was scheduled to see my Ob/Gyn when I got back and he was alarmed at the change in size of my belly and told me he wanted to run some tests, so he sent me to the hospital to do so.  It would be 30 days before I saw the outside of that hospital due to what was diagnosed as “acute renal failure.”  There was no way to know how much time had passed since the kidneys stopped functioning as they labored to filter the blood of me and my unborn baby.  Had I not gone for that routine exam, I would not be writing this story now.

On July 7, 1975, I was taken – along with my brother Ken – to the operating room early in the morning.  It was going to be a full day of surgery and at that time kidney transplants were still pretty much in their infancy, the first in the US being 1954.  My nephrologist, Dr. Metzger, assured me I was in good hands with the surgical team he had gathered.  Ken and I were wheeled down the hallway, hand in hand, for what I consider to be the greatest sacrifice one human can make for another – the gift of life.

So today, July 7, 2017, I celebrate 42 years of a successful kidney transplant.  Dr. Metzger tells me it is the longest surviving kidney that he has transplanted.  For 36 of those years, I have taken no anti-rejection medication.  I am currently in a research project at Emory University Transplant Center with Dr. Kenneth Newell and have been for over 10 years, the purpose of which is to determine the factors present in my system and others like myself who are “tolerant” patients that are different from others who need to remain on medication.  The more information gathered by this research, the more future transplant patients will benefit from it.  It is my way of paying it forward.

For me, having been given an additional 42 years that I would not have had without this gift is a true miracle.  It is a bonus that I have not had to endure the side effects of the medication.  I honestly give all glory for this miracle to my wonderful Creator who is ever-present in my life.  Each day I wake up, I give thanks for another day alive.  I ask to be a blessing in the world and to shine my light out through loving and lifting others up.  I give gratitude for everyone and everything in my life.  I know none of us is guaranteed one more minute than this very NOW that we are living and I will continue to shine my light for as many of those moments as I have left here on earth.  If you love someone, tell them.  If you are grateful for someone, tell them.  Don’t let another minute pass by without letting others know how important they are to you.  I love you!  Namaste

A Half-Empty or Half-Full Year

halfemptyorfullAre you like a lot of people who are shaking their heads and saying “where did half a year go?  Didn’t we just have New Years??”  It is very easy to get caught up in that mentality.  We can liken it to those who look at a glass of water and see it either as half empty or half full.  We can look back and wish for days that are passed or we can march steadfastly and strong into a bright future, one day at a time, one breath at a time owning our power.  This moment, this NOW, really is all that exists at any point in time.  Therefore, mourning the passing of our linear time is really not serving our best and highest purpose, is it?  We would be better served by looking at how we can make a difference in the world today.  Each morning I awaken with gratitude for a new day, a new opportunity to experience adventure, love, happiness and joy.  I ask out loud, “Now how can this day get better?  How can I serve others today?”  When we approach life with such an attitude, we have left behind us a trail of positive energy that keeps moving forward in momentum.  What legacy do you want to leave behind you?  I love you!

Go With the Flow

chaos 1Where are you standing in the midst of the chaos?  We do have choices, you know.  We do not have a choice or control over external things such as those things called natural disasters, acts of God, meteorites, sun flares and Mercury retrogrades or even over other people’s actions or words.  The choice we do have is how we are standing firm against all of this.  The full moon is happening this week and the energy may seem a little wonky to you or maybe you are at a point where you welcome in the energy and see it as only energy, neither good or bad.  It does have a healing property to it as it recharges our chakras.  Some put out crystals and gemstones to be charged in its powerful glow.  The earth is naturally full of these crystals and stones and therefore is receiving a charge from the moon as well, so even standing barefoot on earth during this time will help recharge your own energy fields.

My shaman last night spoke of energy.  He said to look at it as neither positive nor negative, but just accept it as is.  It’s the same as looking at another person and not judging whether they are good or bad, ugly or beautiful, rich or poor – just looking at them and seeing the inside spirit.  When we see things without judgment, including ourselves, we have begun our own ascension process.  It is neither easy or hard to do this.  It does, however, take a commitment to stand firm in the chaos and go with the flow.  Namaste

Peace, Be Still

cbdf879f5433950ac1a882a4ce58472bPeace, be still.  Can’t you feel the storms raging?  Last night the winds were so strong they moved the pool furniture around.  I stood out by the water and felt myself being moved about and I thought how life is like that sometimes if we allow it.  We can let the storms rage against us, tossing us one way or another or we can put our feet firmly on the ground, as I did last night, and say “peace, be still.”  I know I make this point quite often about how we each choose how to live our lives and I will probably make it another million times before I die, but it is because it is so important to understand.  Our minds are powerful – so powerful that if we use our imagination and tell ourselves we are in a very cold place and feel it deep inside of us, we will actually start shivering from being cold, even in the heat of summer.  If we tell ourselves and truly believe that we are abundant, we will not only feel and act as if we are but we will manifest those things or people in our lives that will bring abundance to us.  Top athletes use visualization methods to see themselves excelling at their sport.  Executives use visualization to advance their leaders and themselves to achieve success.  Inventors use visualization methods to give their brain the task of creating.  This is nothing new.  When we visualize ourselves as successful and abundant and healthy, our minds immediately go into creative mode to look for solutions that will match what we are imagining ourselves to be.  Our job is to be still and believe.  That’s it!  We are such magnificent co-creators with the universe but so many are looking at the winds raging and waiting for a savior to say “Peace, be still.”

Right now stop whatever you are doing and go look in the mirror.  Do it now, don’t wait.  Say to yourself, “I am a truly abundant being.”  Breathe.  Again, “I am a truly abundant being.”  Say it once more with confidence.  Now, carry that thought with you the rest of the day.  Marinate in it.  Let it go to the deepest part of your soul.  When the storms rage and the ego starts talking, simply say “Peace, be still.”  I love you.  Namaste

Dream A Little Dream

dreamI’ve always been fascinated with dreams – you know, that phenomenon that happens when we close our eyes to “rest.”  Sometimes I think it is God’s way of entertaining me so I just enjoy the movie but other times I wake up shaken and full of questions.  Was it real?  Did that really happen on another dimension and I just experienced it there?  No one can really answer definitively what dreams are all about though many have tried to do so.  Many of us search for answers when we have a disturbing dream or even an interesting or pleasant dream.  We look up the analysis of what it could mean.  There are those who never remember their dreams after awakening.  From what I understand, we all dream as our brain doesn’t have an “off” switch so it just makes sense it would use that time to play and create.  It usually happens during the deepest stages of sleep according to scientists.  Even Freud voiced his opinion that dreams were a way for people to satisfy urges and desires.  There are so many philosophies and interpretations about why we dream and what it means but I will stick with my own thought that God is entertaining me and my guides and angels are showing me messages and helping me to remember them.

Do you remember your dreams?  If it is something you want to train your brain to do, you can set an intention before you go to sleep that you will remember when you wake up.  You can keep a journal and pen by your bed to write down what you remember upon awakening.  The more you do this, the more you will start to remember.  Our minds are so powerful and when we ask a question the mind immediately goes to work to look for a solution.

Some say we are dreaming our lives as a collective dream.  What are your thoughts on that?  If you want your mind to be blown, check out this article about collective dreaming: http://www.spiritofmaat.com/archive/may3/schlitz.htm.  I’m still processing what I am learning about it.  I would love your comments.  Happy dreaming! Namaste

 

I Hear You Calling My Name

holy-spirit-best-bestI woke up to the sound of my name – not the name I have been known as for most of my life but the name I was given when I came into the world. At first I ignored it but it persisted, calling me out of my deep sleep. I looked around the room and my cat was sitting there looking at me.  While she does talk, she has never known me by that name. So I knew I had a visitor — someone that was reaching out to me – someone saying pay attention. It is one of those moments where you really have to be still ask yourself if that just happened. My next question was who are you and what do you want; how can I help you? The answer that I got was I am you and you are me. Not what I wanted to hear this early in the morning, so I closed my eyes to try to get a deeper connection. Again, I hear I am you and you are me. What does that mean?  Am I talking to myself from a different dimension, is it my higher self communicating with me, all these questions and yet I know inside what I have to do. I have to sit with myself and quieten my mind and say okay I’m ready. Talk to me, show me what it is that I need to know.

Once the ego steps aside and we are just quietly open to receiving, it is amazing what we hear.  Sometimes our spirit guides call our name, sometimes they gently nudge us on the shoulder or touch our hair but they persist until they get our attention.  I have been dealing with a lot of things lately including my physical recovery, so the fact that they were calling out to me reminded me that I need to take that quiet respite daily to hear them and let them guide me.  We all do.  Have you had your daily dose of spirit today?  I love you!  Namaste

I Understand

images snailIt was a language I was not familiar with so the sound intrigued me.  I listened intently for the inflections to indicate question, emotions, etc. and tuned in to what I imagined she might be saying.  I know that on some deep level my subconscious understood this, knew what the message was.  I so wanted to “get it” and respond but instead I stood there with a blank look on my face.  I could feel her frustration at not being able to communicate.  My thought was “I should be able to understand her since we are all connected through spirit.”  Immediately with that realization, a thought crossed my mind and I knew it was what she was trying to relay to me in her beautiful language.  I motioned toward a hallway and a huge smile appeared on her face.  She was so grateful and she also knew that it was a soul level connection and not that I miraculously comprehended her foreign language.  It was truly a beautiful moment.

In the Oneness of all that is, there is no need for words or interpretation.  We just connect our energies and relay our messages.  It is just that simple.  Our human brains and ego want to complicate it, doubts kick in and the word “can’t” keeps rearing its ugly head.  So seriously, learn to let go of the reins and use the mantra “I understand.”  Learn to just free yourself to receive the messages when they come and not question them.  Go with that first gut instinct and the first thing you hear.  Easy peasy.  I love you!  Namaste

It’s My Choice

22e29b1527d26d5866bae0962b6d860cToday is a most amazing day! It really is true that what you focus on expands. When we focus our attention on finding positive uplifting things, the universe always provides. When we make a conscious decision to be happy, we are happy. This does not mean that life is perfect or that there is no stress because that is always going to be there. It simply means that whatever comes our way we have already decided that happiness is the priority and that we can handle the daily stresses. Every day we pick and choose our battles. We make the decision of what we will react or respond to and what is just not that important. When we decide that something requires our attention, we can stop and analyze before we reply. In using our inner happiness as a guide, we can then decide if what is in front of us is something we wish to make a part of our reality and if so what will the outcome be in doing that. Once we realize that we have choices, our sense of self-worth increases. We no longer are tossed about by other people’s intrusion into our reality. We create our own reality.

When I say, “today is a most amazing day,” that is my choice. I can make choices about how I feel today, how I interact with others, how much I allow myself to be influenced by others. If I make my happiness top priority in my life, I will make the choices necessary to ensure that happiness exists.  Each of us has the ability to do this every day. Look at your day. What choices did you make that affected how you were feeling about yourself, about others, about the world? The simple awareness that we have choices, that we are in control of ourselves is what will determine our state of being happy or not. I choose happiness. I choose peace. I choose love. I love you. Namaste

Circle Rainbows

RainbowI was feeling a bit overwhelmed with my day so decided to unplug for a few minutes and go sit outside by the pool in the gorgeous weather.  I had my sunglasses on as it was quite bright and I love looking at clouds.  When I glanced upwards, I was surprised to see what looked like a rainbow but in a circle.  I took the glasses off and it was too bright to see anything other than white light so I put them back on and voila, there it was!  I continued to stare at this amazing circle of color as the sun weaved in and out of clouds.  I thought, did I create this in my mind because I am that magical and can create whatever I want to see or is it really there?  At that moment, the sun went behind a dark cloud and the circle rainbow went away almost as if to say, yes I am real to answer your question.

Life is magical and we can try to sift through the white light that blinds us to the beauty that is beyond it or not fight it, not question it but know and accept that what we are seeing is something that is part of our journey.  When we look at other beings who are in our little part of the world, sometimes their physical essence or their words and/or attitude is the barrier to the real beauty that lies just beyond, just as the brightness of the sun was the barrier to my circle rainbow.  Sometimes we need the sunglasses when we observe what is in front of us to sift through that barrier.  I choose to look through my sunglasses of love and acceptance to see the real person.  Will you join me in doing this for one day and see if it makes a difference?  You may find a circle rainbow of your own.  I love you!  Namaste