My 10-day challenge – Glowing

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November 27, 2019 ~ Day 6

It’s a great day to have a great day! My waking thoughts are not about my to-do list which was a habit I had fallen into of checking my schedule as soon as I woke up.  Instead this morning it is about what Can I do today! Yes I can is so very powerful! It opens the door to all possibilities.  Indeed, there are still responsibilities and things that have already been planned out but approaching it with a different perspective is quite freeing.  I can look at things with new eyes.  I can see that client who is on my schedule in a different light.  Whatever is needed in their life such as hand-holding, a shoulder to cry on, a compassionate ear, some healing energy, is given with a heart full of love and focused mind.

This new mindset is so uplifting. My energy soars daily which keeps me motivated in all areas of my life. The physical changes that are occurring are wonderful but not my entire focus. It really is true that what is inside is reflected on the outside. I am hearing things such as “you are glowing” when I see friends. It is my intention to let that outward glow shine forth and touch everyone with love, with a spark of the Divine. May you be blessed this day!

 

Shadow Work

Dark moments happen to all of us. It is the contrast of living in a human body. If we didn’t have the dark, we wouldn’t recognize the light and vice versa. It is what we do with those dark moments that is important. This year has been full of such moments for me. The first instinct is to hide, crawl into a corner and make myself invisible to not have to deal with it. I have found, however, that by opening up in those dark times a spark of light comes in. Sometimes it is just a flicker and if I treat it gently it gets brighter.

Today, as I sit in my cave of darkness, curtains drawn, lights off and in complete silence I give in to a moment of emptiness and sadness. I don’t wish for outside intervention, for caring concerned loved ones, for smiles and laughter. I only want to experience the hurt and anguish. I want to get in touch with that place inside where I filed away the fear, the worry, the anger, the nightmares of the past year. I call them all out, asking them to show me their strongest and worst presence. I speak to them gently, not with the rage I expected to feel. I say “I love you.” I embrace them all as a mother would a baby. My heart is pounding as one by one I release each emotion. I honor this part of me – the dark side because it is real and raw. It doesn’t try to be anything other than what it is. I say “thank you.” The experiences of life have no meaning unless we use them to get real with ourselves. I feel gratitude for the journey. I say “please forgive me.” I dishonored myself and my emotions by not letting them be expressed fully. Forgiveness is the secret weapon that frees us from ourselves. I say “I’m sorry.” Sometimes being human is hard. I make mistakes. I own it.

I know there will be more dark times, more moments of confronting that part of me that is needed for balance. If I leave it unchecked, it will continue to grow in strength because that is how the process works; just like cancer when it is left unchecked and untreated.

It is time for some real awakening. It has to begin with the darkest side of us. Love it, honor it, release it to the light. There really is nothing to fear but fear itself. I love you.

SOMETIMES ALL YOU NEED IS TIME

tree at qwp“What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

As we get caught up in dwelling on our past and/or our future, we forget that we are in constant growth inside.  We look at our physical bodies and the way they used to look compared to now and this lets us know that we are progressing in one of the many laws of the universe.  However, there are so many laws at play and many times we only focus on one or two of them.  I offer you this well-known fable today in the hopes that you will understand more about expectations, balance and hopefully realize that you matter.  We all matter in this world whether we are a fast-growing fern or a seed that is just waiting for its time to show itself to the world.

 The Fable of the Fern and the Bamboo

One day I decided to give up: I quit my job, my relationship and my life. I went into the woods to talk with an elder who was said to be very wise.

“Can you give me one good reason not to quit?” I asked him. “Look around” he replied. “Do you see the fern and the bamboo?” “Yes”, I replied. “When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. The fern quickly grew. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not give up on the bamboo. In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful, and again, nothing grew from the bamboo seed. But I did not give up on the bamboo.

In the third year still nothing sprouted from the bamboo seed. But I didn’t give up on the bamboo. In the fourth year again nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I didn’t give up on the bamboo. Then in the fifth year, a tiny shoot emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant.

But then in the sixth year, the bamboo grew to 60 feet tall. It had spent five years growing the roots to sustain it. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

Did you know that all this time that you have been struggling, you have really been growing roots? The bamboo has a different purpose from the fern, but both are necessary and make the forest beautiful.”

 

May you see yourself as you are today without comparison to others.  May there be peace in your world. Please, can’t we all just get along and find our place in the sun without judgment?  I love you!

 

Teri is the founder of TIME Heals energy healing modality, a Certified Happiness Coach and spiritual mentor, an Add-Heart Facilitator with the HeartMath Institute, a psychic/medium and an author.  More information about her work or to book a session, please visit www.Angelspeakers.com

Teri is the author of The Doctor Said What?, TIME Heals, Hugz~Love: My Five-Month Journey From Cocoon to Butterfly, Changes: Life Changes When You Do and Gratitude Vase.  She is currently working on her 6th book, A TIME For Animals Love Revolution.  All books can be found at https://www.amazon.com/Teri-Miller/e/B016TPZIDI

 

 

 

Calm Down ~ There’s A Plan

photo_2019-02-18_20-27-46I am so grateful for friends, especially for friends who are not letting me go through this journey alone!  One such friend accompanied me today to see the doctor for MRI results and to discuss treatment options.  She has been there, this journey that many are finding themselves on these days.  The stench along the path is horrid; it reeks of anger, fear, sadness, guilt, loneliness.  Indeed, cancer can be a lonely road. Friends and loved ones can be supportive but they often do not fully understand how devastating it is to go through. It makes me very sad that some cannot cope emotionally and have distanced themselves altogether. The emotional support is the most crucial to a complete recovery.

For those of you following my journey, the doctor visit today confirmed what the other tests have shown – invasive lobular carcinoma. Being that this was a more in-depth test, it did show that there were more areas than just the one suspicious mass that had been identified.  I went in to the meeting with my friend in tow, expecting to have to defend the method of treatment I chose.  The angels, however, had already paved the way for a smooth discussion with the doctor and with the additional information from the testing, we were in accord as to the treatment plan.  Thank you angels and thank you Tiffany – my rock, my beautiful soul sister!

I have had many miracles show up in my life and there have been several recent ones that are making this journey a little easier.  I am learning to accept help when it is offered.  I was recently led by a friend to a wonderful resource that will help take the burden off financially going forward.  My stress level dropped tremendously with that!  I have another friend who started a crowdfunding campaign to help cover the expenses already incurred and to help meet expenses while I recuperate from the upcoming surgery (thank you Audi)!  Many have offered to be with me at the hospital when the time comes.  Maybe I should prepare the nurses ahead of time?

As I look at my support system, I am humbled and grateful for such beautiful people in my life.  I know how fortunate I am to have you all.  I know there are many going through this same journey who are alone.  Wouldn’t it be wonderful if there was a way to spread support so that no cancer patient had to walk this road alone?  Maybe that is where this journey is headed for me.  I will definitely be talking to the angels about it!

 

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Calming the Waves Of the Unknown

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“Life comes at us in waves. We can’t predict or control those waves, but we can learn to surf”  Dan Millman

I owe the title of this blog to someone very dear to my heart, someone I consider a daughter in this lifetime although we are not related by blood but by spirit; and someone who has traveled this journey and knows the road all too well.  As I shared with Shawntay this morning in a chat that the waiting and not knowing what I am dealing with exactly is the hardest part of the journey, she sent me some soothing music to “calm the waves of the unknown.”  This is what I mean when I say that those who have been through the fire know the flames well enough to share the experience and what is necessary to face it mentally.  My friend Tiffany has traveled this road as well and holds my hand, checks on me every day, and finds some way to lift me up with words and hugs and lots of laughter.  There are so many others who message and call and each one is so appreciated.  As I go through this trial of fire, I know I am not alone.  I have precious angels holding me and wiping tears, guiding me to resources which many of you have shared as well.  I have no doubt that I will come through this fire with only a singe and will rise up from it like the beautiful phoenix that I am.  Ah, how many times in this one lifetime have I done this dance?  Staring death in the face since an early age, triumphing every time that the odds looked impossible.  I once joked that I was leaving this world one body part at a time.  I have to find humor in the experiences or else it is just a horrible experience instead of something I can overcome and be grateful for.

Speaking of humor – and hopefully this does not offend anyone, although it is my journey so I choose to do so anyway – I will share my most recent experience with you and trust you will laugh along with me. I underwent a biopsy of the lumps in both breasts a couple of days ago. The surgical cleanse they used was blue and turned my breasts blue. I was told not to shower for a day and when I removed the bandages to do so there were red streaks as my skin is very sensitive to adhesive and I had a reaction to the tape they used. There are Steri-Strips covering the wound sites and those are white. Therefore, I now have red white and blue boobs – very patriotic don’t you think?  I feel that I should salute them!!  One friend called them Star Spangled Boobs!  Ah, thank you to those who know me and know my humor!

During the biopsy I became disheartened when the doctor discovered that they were not cysts, as I was holding on to the hope that this would be the case.  Instead of losing it, which I came close to doing, I focused instead on my tools.  I laid there doing the Heart-Brain Coherence that I learned from Gregg Braden and love to teach to others.  I can say with ultimate confidence now that it is the best practical and most expedient tool any of us can have to use when facing difficult situations.  I even have a support group of ladies that I meet with weekly to do the Heart-Brain breathing and lift each other up (thank you WonderWomen).

So, as I play the waiting game and deal with the world of the unknown, I will continue to hold onto each positive message.  I will continue to do my affirmations that I am in perfect health and worthy of that.  I will continue to do EFT tapping to calm the nerves and change the cells inside my body, and thank you John for nudging me to do so and checking on me daily.  I will fight, trusting that I am supported and protected by the beautiful angels, including those on earth.  I love you.

 

 

 

Kindness Matters

40496329_580710779014538_5597924824438538240_nWhat is kindness?  This is a question I will be answering to be considered as part of an organization focused on bringing more kindness into our world.  As I first looked at the question, my reaction was “well, duh, everybody knows what it is.”  I then paused to really consider that response.  Does everyone really know what kindness is?  If that is truly the case, then are we just choosing who to be kind to and when to do so?  If we understand that speaking warmly to others instead of being critical and judgmental is part of being kind, why is there so much bitterness and bullying?  When faced with these questions, we become perfect blamethrowers.  It was our upbringing (or lack thereof), peer pressure, just my personality, rejection, and on and on the list could go of potential reasons to not be kind to others.  What is really the issue here and how do we get back to a place where values and integrity matter?  How many children need to suffer and become scarred adults before we realize the magnitude of the problem and that it really has a very simple solution?

Holding a door for someone is a sign of respect and an act of kindness.  Smiling at others, making eye contact and acknowledging them is also an act of kindness.  I could list many small random acts that can be done in the course of a day.  Yes, these will make a difference to the recipient as well as to the giver.  It creates a glow inside and that is where the change must come from.  We can’t sit around and wait for someone else to do it.  Speak to your neighbor, call your parents (and/or your children), turn off your cellphones and have a dinner conversation.  Let’s take our world back one kind act at a time.  Let’s give the children of today something real to emulate.  Mister Rogers had it right when he said, “There is something of yourself that you leave at every meeting with another person.”  What are you leaving? #IChooseKindness

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