Forgiveness

quotes-Dear-ones--open-yourYou are feeling the yearning to move forward, to stretch beyond that which is restraining you, holding you in place.  Dear ones, open your eyes and you will see that those tethers are of your own creation.  As you stand there frozen in fear of what lies ahead and remembering what transpired in your past, you are the only one who can release the bonds.  Nothing you have done up until this point in your life can control you unless you give it the power to do so.  But Master, you say, it is unforgivable. It was shameful and hurtful towards others.  Forgiveness, dear ones, is unconditional; however, does not happen instantaneously.  When you are dealing with feelings of shame, regret, anger, these are very strong emotions.  Your mind knows you would be in a better place if you would release them.  Your heart feels burdened underneath their weight.  Your ego wants to hold onto them perhaps because they are all you feel you have left of a situation in which you were hurt very deeply.  Well-meaning advice of “just let it go” make you feel worse and sometimes rebellious to hold on tighter to the feelings.  Forgiveness, like grief, is a process that is individual to the person and the situation.  There are stages you will go through as you forgive but keep in mind that when you decide to start the process you are unlocking the chains that were holding you.  With each emotion you let go of, another cord is cut layer by layer until you have peeled away that which stings, that which controls you, that which was slowly draining you of life.  Gently release those chains using your own free will to do so and in your own time.  When you finally reach that place of total forgiveness towards another or towards yourself, your heart will respond in a miraculous way and begin to fill with love once again.

Channeled 10-20-17

Purpose

quotes-Tap-into-that-connecYou have been contemplating lately about “purpose” as your Earth undergoes tremendous changes.  Some are saying that what is happening in parts of the world can be compared to the ravages of war.  All the disasters are causing stress on your planet, rearranging parts of her, destroying what was and leaving behind barrenness in some places.  You weep for the Mother.  You cry out for those no longer there and collectively you ask why.  Be assured, dear ones, this is not a punishment dealt out in response to mankind’s actions.  When you encounter stressful situations in your individual life, you sometimes think of it as punishment, do you not?  You use words like “karma” to try to make sense of why such a thing would happen to you.  You are looking at it as if it is an outside force doing something against you for some reason and your human mind goes to work to explain it.  Many teachers have tried to help you understand Oneness; yet, you continue to see yourselves as individual, as disconnected from the whole.  In this solitude you imagine you have to continually defend yourself against the outside forces.  You compare, criticize and judge others around you.  You lose sight of your purpose for being here having this human experience.  Just as you see Mother Earth being ravaged and question why it is happening to her, you see vulnerability in yourself and when something happens you immediately question why it is happening to you.  Look at any situation you are experiencing in your human lifetime with your spiritual eyes instead of your human ego eyesight.  When you take everything personally as though it is an attack on you, you lose sight of who you are and you stay in defense mode.  You are a spiritual being.  This human body you are inhabiting is only for a short duration.  Open up to what your purpose is for being here at this particular time.  Get your mind off the perceived attacks and focus on how you can help be part of the solution for the collective whole.  Tap into that connection of Oneness.  It is there in that place that you will find the peace you are seeking and your purpose will be clear.

 

Channeled message 10/19/17

Surrender

quotes-Grab-onto-those-clouThat tug of war that is going on inside you is creating chaos and confusion.  Take a step away from the situation at hand and you will soon see the fruitlessness of the effort you are expending to try to maintain control.  You want so badly to be right, to be the victor, that you have lost sight of what is important and who you are hurting in the process of winning.  Sit for a moment and imagine that you are on top of the highest mountain looking down into the valley.  There is no one there but you and you have everything you need with you to survive.  Watch as the clouds slowly drift by you.  Breathe in the tranquility.  Now ask yourself, would it matter if my mountain were not the highest mountain in the world?  Can I be happy and fulfilled here on this beautiful mountain as I am surrounded by peace?  When you surrender to where you are at this particular moment without comparing that experience with any other, without contemplating if the grass is greener somewhere else or the view more spectacular, then you have achieved true freedom.  How you perceive things in your world is how they will appear to you.  If you always see your mountain as lower than someone else’s, then it will be and the feeling of lack is what will surround you instead of the beautiful tranquility that is waiting there to be discovered.  Grab onto those clouds and surrender to each now moment as it arrives.  The peace that will surround you will feel like a warm comfortable blanket; and you will know that in letting go you have won the inner battle.

Channeled 10-18-17

Oneness

Oneness whole lifeWhen you are in your alone time, those quiet moments where you shut out the world and quieten your mind, and begin to slowly open your heart, you become closest to who you really are.  As the flame slowly ignites, you feel its warmth and your breath falls into a rhythm, a beat that matches the frequency of the planet.  You feel the energy start to expand with the warmth, urging it to lift you higher to that realm where there is only the matched vibration to yours, the realm of pure love.  It is in that place of knowing the Oneness that you relax into the flow of who you are among the swirling mass of spirit.  You are drawn into the vortex of it, spinning and floating, surrendering to the moment.  This experience, this merging of energies with no agenda, no boundaries, no limits is the most freeing moment you have experienced since coming into physical form.  Here on this dimension, you feel no separation.  Your soul has merged with every other soul and together you form into Oneness.  You remember what it was like there.  You have been seeking this your whole life.  Allow the energy to swirl around, through and from you.  Remember as you do so and know that it is the true you.  You are so loved.

Channeled message 10/17/17

 

Know Yourself, Love Yourself and Change Your World

p02vf969Taking a break from outside distractions and spending the day with myself showed me a few things.  Yes, there was the impulse to reach for the mouse and with a few clicks be instantly connected to the hustle and bustle of social media.  There was also the impulse to pick up my phone and check messages.  I had huge arguments with myself that all started with but … things like “but what about the groups I administrate” and “but I always do this…”  Yes, the struggle is real.  We get so wrapped up in our ego monkey mind and letting it control what we do and when we do it that it gives us no time to be with ourselves.  We know who is on vacation and where, what others are eating, who got a new animal or lost a beloved pet all the while neglecting to schedule our own vacation or plan our meals or pay attention to our own furbabies … or just stop to smell the roses.

So, I smelled some roses today figuratively.  I took time to assess the direction I was going and how my life was progressing.  Barbara Marx Hubbard states “Ask to know what you are born to do. Follow the compass of joy.”  I took time to enjoy nature and became more centered through connecting with Mother Earth.  I listened to some very spiritually connected people making a whole lot of sense and had my soul fed.  I played with both my inner child and my two furbabies.  I took time to listen to a friend who was struggling and gave her my full attention, unimpeded by the distraction of the computer.  I laughed at myself.  I had fun being with me!  I looked in the mirror and asked “what do you want?”  I am so used to asking other people that and listening to their answers and yet when I asked that person in the mirror it was like a totally unique experience.  Suddenly, there was a gleam in my eyes.  I found myself intrigued that I was actually standing there waiting for the answer.  Wow.  What do I want?  It was an AHA moment.

Interestingly, after that interlude, I realized something very profound about desire.  When we are in the mode of wanting something, i.e., our desire, our focus is on that.  We are so intent on having to have it and then when it does materialize we relax from that intensity.  We “breathe” again.  There is happiness, bliss, joy.  What if we took the desire out of the mix?  What if our focus became that state of happiness, bliss and joy?  I’m not saying don’t want anything or strive for more of whatever your dreams are.  Instead, place the focus on the feeling of already having your desire.  Knowing what you want is only the first step, not the entire enchilada, although for some it becomes an obsession.  Once the “that” is established, then go within yourself and find the emotions connected with the fulfillment of that desire and let that be where your attention stays.  Whatever your “that” is, absorb it as a part of yourself.  You are the creator of your own reality; thus, you can make the statement, “I am that, I am” for whatever your “that” is.  In fact, doing this exercise with everything in your world, including people, will be a mind-blowing experience!

When you take time to really know yourself and all your wants/desires, your likes and dislikes, your idiosyncrasies, then you can begin to fall in love with yourself.  When you fall in love with yourself, you are going to want the best possible life for yourself.  That, my friends, will be the motivation for making your world a better place to live.  I am so grateful for all of you!  I love you.  Namaste

152950274I am so grateful for this day!  I feel “seen” by God.  I know the angels are surrounding me. I am loved.  I am that — I am!  I am the sound of a thousand songbirds.  I am the rush of a million waves in the ocean.  I am the quiet snow on the mountaintop.  I am the breeze brushing against my face.  I am the children’s laughter coming from the playground.  I am the words written on this page. I am peace.  I am LOVE.  I am joy.  I am that!

The Gift of Life

kidneydonationpicJuly 6, 1975 was my last dialysis treatment of what was a hellish 8 months of undergoing 5-hour per day 3 times a week treatments.  My kidneys had failed in November the prior year, landing me in the hospital for the entire month.  I remember those days like it was yesterday.  I had gone on vacation in October to visit my family in Kentucky before my baby was due as I was only 6 months along.  I didn’t get to see them very often because I was so far away, having moved to Florida 2 years earlier.  When I got back from vacation, I went from looking like I was 6 months pregnant to what appeared to be a 9-month pregnancy.  I felt okay except for what I assumed were normal pregnancy issues – swollen feet, tiredness, etc.  I say assumed because it was my first time pregnant.  I was scheduled to see my Ob/Gyn when I got back and he was alarmed at the change in size of my belly and told me he wanted to run some tests, so he sent me to the hospital to do so.  It would be 30 days before I saw the outside of that hospital due to what was diagnosed as “acute renal failure.”  There was no way to know how much time had passed since the kidneys stopped functioning as they labored to filter the blood of me and my unborn baby.  Had I not gone for that routine exam, I would not be writing this story now.

On July 7, 1975, I was taken – along with my brother Ken – to the operating room early in the morning.  It was going to be a full day of surgery and at that time kidney transplants were still pretty much in their infancy, the first in the US being 1954.  My nephrologist, Dr. Metzger, assured me I was in good hands with the surgical team he had gathered.  Ken and I were wheeled down the hallway, hand in hand, for what I consider to be the greatest sacrifice one human can make for another – the gift of life.

So today, July 7, 2017, I celebrate 42 years of a successful kidney transplant.  Dr. Metzger tells me it is the longest surviving kidney that he has transplanted.  For 36 of those years, I have taken no anti-rejection medication.  I am currently in a research project at Emory University Transplant Center with Dr. Kenneth Newell and have been for over 10 years, the purpose of which is to determine the factors present in my system and others like myself who are “tolerant” patients that are different from others who need to remain on medication.  The more information gathered by this research, the more future transplant patients will benefit from it.  It is my way of paying it forward.

For me, having been given an additional 42 years that I would not have had without this gift is a true miracle.  It is a bonus that I have not had to endure the side effects of the medication.  I honestly give all glory for this miracle to my wonderful Creator who is ever-present in my life.  Each day I wake up, I give thanks for another day alive.  I ask to be a blessing in the world and to shine my light out through loving and lifting others up.  I give gratitude for everyone and everything in my life.  I know none of us is guaranteed one more minute than this very NOW that we are living and I will continue to shine my light for as many of those moments as I have left here on earth.  If you love someone, tell them.  If you are grateful for someone, tell them.  Don’t let another minute pass by without letting others know how important they are to you.  I love you!  Namaste